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Maxapos;s jaw just hang in ashtonishment. He just stared at me as if I had fifty million heads. Had it been something I said?

"Did you just say Frank Iero was your ex-boyfriend?" Max said as if he could not bare to utter those words.
"Yes, I did..BUT That was over a year a go He means nothing to me He is nothing" I said still on the floor with my eyeliner running down my cheeks.
Max just stood there, as if he were recollecting something or just thinking..
"Why? Do you two know each other?" I said while I attempted to stand up and wipe off my tears.
"We used to be best friends when we were younger before I moved to Nevada. He lived down the block from me. We would hang out all the time just playing music and causing trouble." And as he said this, all of his childhood memories with Frankie started to come back to him.
"We were like brothers. We got our lips pierced together and he was there for me when my Pa Pa died. We lost connection after I moved but we both knew that weapos;d be famous; some how, some way. When both our bands starte dto head for the big time, we re-met on a tour and just started talking again. We tell each other almost everything even if we only get to see each other for a few mintues."
I stood there, stiff as a board. I tried to absorb everything that Max had just told me. So what did this mean for us? Was Max and Frankieapos;s close relationship going to brek us apart? I knew I had overreacted with the whole Frankie thing, but I did know how it was going to effect my relationship with Max.
"Max, I know there are a lot of hings I havenapos;t told you yet and Frankie was the biggest one of them all. I was just so hurt and ashamed of what he did to me and what had happened between us. But that was all in the past. Frankie is just another ex-boyfriend that is done and over with. I donapos;t want my past history with Frankie to break us. Max, you make me feel so much better about myself and everything around me. I can be my true self around you and you wonapos;t even think about judging me because you like what you see and get from me. I dont want to loose the way you make me feel and I especiall donapos;t want to loose you." My vioce trembled as I spoke those words. My knees felt like they were just about to give out on me and my whole body would collapse. I started to feel the tears piling up in my eyes and start to over-flow onto my face.
"Sydney, I really donapos;t know what to say or do or even think right now.. I seriously do not know what to say to you about this whole fucking situation." I could tell he was getting angry.
"You canapos;t keep these things from me. I know that he was in the past and he was done and over with, but I still need to know about this. Keeping this shit bottled up inside is not going to work for this relationship. Ugh, fuck.." He just paced around the alley way as he ran his hand through his thick black hair. I could tell he was thinking of something..

Please donapos;t say it, please donapos;t say what I know youapos;re thinking and what Iapos;m absolutely dreading..

"I think you need to give me a few days just to think. Everything is just to crazy and out of control and I need time just to think." As he said those words, my heary just sank into my stomach. He stood there with his hand on my back looking down at the ground. I could barely feel his hand on my back as I stood there so motionless and emotionless as if I were a mannequin. I felt like one too, cold and hallow. I finally found the words I was looking for while shuffling through all of my racing thoughts running back and forth through my mind.
"Yeah, okay. Whatever you think is best for us." I said so coldly.
Max rubbed his hand up and down my back real quick and then headed back inside. I stood in that alley way just holding the necklace he gave me. The necklace slipped from my weak grip. It just layed there on the cold dirty alley way ground.

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